Losing Your Faith, Finding Your Soul by David Robert Anderson

Author:David Robert Anderson [Anderson, David Robert]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 978-0-307-73121-0
Publisher: The Crown Publishing Group
Published: 2013-09-17T00:00:00+00:00

“He’s always just put out of his mind anything that’s disturbing,” she said. It was her husband we were talking about. He was nearly broke, had lost almost everything when the real-estate bubble popped, and now his sister was dying. They were so close, and he was in despair.

“Does he talk to you about it, or would he talk to me?” I asked.

“No, he doesn’t want to talk about his troubles,” she said. “That’s the way it was in his childhood home—that’s how you dealt with unpleasantness. You just put it away and that was that. I’ve told him, ‘You can’t keep bottling this up inside. It’s not good for you.’ But that’s just his way.”

There is nothing unusual about this man. We all do this. It’s a common coping technique because it works.

In the early years, when you get hit with disappointments and losses, you learn to slough them off and move on. You don’t have time to be all introspective. The baby has croup, and your boss is demanding a report by 9:00 a.m. Winners play through pain. After you go home, turn out the lights, and fall into bed, however, the wolves start howling down in the underworld. You learn to live like that for years.

Later on, things change. Usually it’s because there’s one wolf we can’t escape, and when we undergo the suffering (because we have to), we find that we are still alive, sometimes stronger! Now the poles begin shifting.

If you’ve put even a little distance between you and the System, if you’ve glimpsed even briefly the I that is not fazed by success or failure, you’ve seen behind the veil—and you’re not so afraid anymore. If what you fear holds no real power over you, why the silent scream? If the subject of attack is just that old false self, it’s not exactly a crisis. You’ve already seen it for what it is. It’s Peekay’s outer shell. Inside is the authentic you, and that cannot be touched. When you begin to understand your fears in this way, you are on the threshold of enormous power.

There are only two poles in life: fear and love. Each pole operates on a completely different energy source. Fear fuels the false, egoic self. Love infuses the true. One is fission, the other fusion. That is, fear in its fission must divide the world into those dualisms: good/bad, happy/sad, light/dark. It tries to keep you up in the light, looking good, and it sends all the dark things down to the cellar. Love, on the other hand, in its fusion is always holding the opposites together. Yin and yang. That is the source of its creativity and beauty.

When all your personal energy goes into protecting the sham self, fear abounds. The ego sees a threat behind every bush, so panic is continual. Its fissile strategy is to deny, cut off, circle the wagons, refuse admittance, protect the asset at all costs.

When you know you have another I that doesn’t need to be protected, love abounds.

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